Outlet.... that's the main reason why I write in this blog.... There are times when I feel that I want to stop doing things and bury my head in the sand, oblivion to the world. But somehow... that will never make the problem go away. Instead I realised that rather than shut my life from others, the opposite is more beneficial. I now know that by opening my heart to others, I also open doors to problem solutions. From now on, this blog will become my "Outlet"... so that these doors will be opened....b>
JIWASEGARis proficient in Thai language... which makes him a rare gem. What's more interesting is the fact that he's willing to share that knowledge with us. He is also a certified psychologist, but it doesn't mean that his life is not as chaotic as others. He truly is ...GUY INTERRUPTED
4KAZONEwrites with such an easy pace that makes reading pleasant. A relatively new guy to this blogging craze, he shows some trait that is so much different that the next-door-Joe.
FARAHshows her vulnerable side in her blog... an account of her often tumultuous mood and disposition. It is very interesting to see a contrast between her outside sunny and often cocky manner with her fragile inside as portrayed in her blog br>
HIMSELF AS A CHILD (TON EAFTO TOU PAIDI)
(sung by Mario Frangoulis)
He holds his inner child by the hand
Life will take them to the same place tonight
They will return again to the home of their memories
Through the empty seas, through the webs of fear
They'll stand together and they'll see passing by
The minutes flowing like rivers that never grow old
And the faces that transformed themselves
into streets and centuries
When I was a child, I discovered a garden
And found refuge when I needed to be absent from life
When I was a child, I captured the sun
To light my path, to have a friend in my silence
LINKS
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tengah nazak sekarang ni.. ye la dah hujung-hujung studi ni kan...
so.. hari ni saja nak bagi hapdet la sket...
20 jun dulu... I pergi Hong Kong for 1 week.. ada conference...i present papar yg bertajuk " HEPATIC BIOMARKER RESPONSES IN THE RICE FROG, FEJERVARYA LIMNOCHARIS, NATURALLY EXPOSED TO ENVIRONMENTAL STRESS FROM CADMIUM CONTAMINATION"
i also dapat student award kat konferens nih.. dapat la 350 USD
balik dari HK... demam seminggu.. ingatkan H1N1 atau bird flu... rupanya cuma tonsilitis...hehehehe... penyakit bebudak
then last two weeks.. i dah habiskan skeletochronology...yeay....although data analysis belum lagi...
sekarang ni tengah buat vitellogenin... seksa sket la... dah 2 kali ulang.. resuly very der all over the place...hari ni buat kali yg ketiga... kalau serabut gak.. my conclusion... there's no cross reaction between vtg and the commercially available antibody...hehehehe
dissertation writing... dah about 50-60% complete dah...
tarikh untuk thesis defense pun dah ada.. samada 25 september atau 2 october... tak lama lagi kan... gerunnnnnn
sekarang ni i dok kat rumah iqbal kat kedutaan.. bini dia si harlina balik malaysia sampai hujung bulan ni.. so i dok kat sana la sampai hujung bulan nih.semalam ada game thailand vs liverpool kat ramkhamhaeng.... punya la ramai orang...
and finally.... I am in love again...jarak jauh... tapi sekali sekala jumpa gak.. dia kat Petchaburi.... english teacher kat sana...ermmmm dia ni org Filipina....so tengokla macam mana relationship kali ni...and untuk dia...R... i dedicate this song..MAHAL KITA... yg bermaksud I love you
one-what you wearing now :* dark brown t-shirt (saiz S tau) ngan jeans hitam two-where you going later :* nak balik kot sebab takde mood nak buat keja hari ni
three-who are missing right now :* makcik biah, no contest
four-what are you stressed about these days :* skeletochronology tak leh nak start lagi...
five-whose the last person you chat with :* Yoks... my pinoy friend who teaches english at Anuban Phetchaburi School
six-what makes you happy when you're down :* makan aiskrim
seven-do you wanna get into a r/s now :* in a two r/ship now… one more wouldn’t hurt kannnn eight-have you got a crush on someone :* masih lagi kat Mai nine-ever have a near death experience :* sampan karam kat muara sungai merbuk
ten-whats the time now :* 4.26 petangi waktu Bangkok
eleven-met anyone earlier on :* gi melawat si Iqbal kat hospital... slipped disc
twelve-what did you do just now :* la... melawat si iqbal la kan... pastu cuci mata kat Silom thirteen-whats ur favourite show :* Will & Grace, pasru sinetron indonesia kat RCTI..hehehh
fourteen-what lang do you speak in? :* english, BM, Thai (nit noi)
fifteen-what you hate :* last week... the whole week pening and sakit-sakit.. penangan XYLENE sixteen-wat channel do u usually watch? :* MNet Series, RCTI, KBS seventeen-what annoys you :* sekarang ni... panas n hujan.. jadi cam steam plak
eighteen-where you living at :* Ramkhamhaeng Soi Ha Sip Sam
ninteen-when did anyone last ask for ur number :* Jay fron Indonesia twenty-whats ur favourite pet :* duck... tapi dah jadi rendang twentyone-wheres the place you wanna go now :* balik umah kot
twentytwo-do you like sweet talks :* yes… very much
twentythree-would you mind ur boyfriend/girlfriendbe a gangster :* kalau dia pandai sweet talk… I don't mind twentyfive-whats ur real name :* Nyek masih panggil I Lijah… tetapi kengkadang Semah
twenysix-whats ur favourite month: :*October ni.. harap-harap nya habis PhD twentyseven-have you ever been stung by a bee :* yes... a few times
twentyeight-will you post bulletin as & when you like :* yup
twentynine-who was the last person you hugged :* sape hah….. oooo Kodok Songkran… 2 minggu lepas thirty-whose the last person you said 'I love you' to :* dua hari lepas kat Y.. pastu kat J plak
amacam..... ada perubahan tak hidup I since the last time I jawab soalan-soalan nih....
Dapat artikel ni dari internet... hmmmm nad rasanya ada beberapa orang yang i kenal ada ciri-ciri toxic personality ni la....
so silalah baca...
1.Manipulative Mary: These individuals are experts at manipulation tactics. Is a matter of fact, you may not even realize you have been manipulated until it is too late. These individuals figure out what your 'buttons' are, and push them to get what they want.
Why they are toxic: These people have a way of eating away at your belief system and self-esteem. They find ways to make you do things that you don't necessarily want to do and before you know it, you lose your sense of identity, your personal priorities and your ability to see the reality of the situation. The world all of a sudden becomes centered around their needs and their priorities.
2. Narcissistic Nancy: These people have an extreme sense of self-importance and believe that the world revolves around them. They are often not as sly as the Manipulative Marys of the world, but instead, tend to be a bit overt about getting their needs met. You often want to say to them "It isn't always about you."
Why they are toxic: They are solely focused on their needs, leaving your needs in the dust. You are left disappointed and unfulfilled. Further, they zap your energy by getting you to focus so much on them, that you have nothing left for yourself.
3. Debbie Downers: These people can't appreciate the positive in life. If you tell them that it is a beautiful day, they will tell you about the impending dreary forecast. If you tell them you aced a mid-term, they'll tell you about how difficult the final is going to be.
Why they are toxic: They take the joy out of everything. Your rosy outlook on life continues to get squashed with negativity. Before you know it, their negativity consumes you and you start looking at things with gray colored glasses yourself.
4. Judgmental Jims: When you see things as cute and quirky, they see things as strange and unattractive. If you find people's unique perspectives refreshing, they find them 'wrong'. If you like someone's eclectic taste, they find it 'disturbing' or 'bad'.
Why they are toxic: Judgmental people are much like Debbie Downers. In a world where freedom rings, judgment is sooo over. If the world was a homogeneous place, life would be pretty boring. Spending a lot of time with these types can inadvertently convert you into a judgmental person as well.
5. Dream Killing Keiths: Every time you have an idea, these people tell you why you can't do it. As you achieve, they try to pull you down. As you dream, they are the first to tell you it is impossible.
Why they are toxic: These people are stuck in what is instead of what could be. Further, these individuals eat away at your self-esteem and your belief in yourself. Progress and change can only occur from doing new things and innovating, dreaming the impossible and reaching for the stars.
6. Insincere Illissas: You never quite feel that these people are being sincere. You tell a funny story, they give you a polite laugh. You feel depressed and sad and they give you a 'there, there' type response. You tell them you are excited about something and you get a very ho-hum response.
Why they are toxic: People who aren't sincere or genuine build relationships on superficial criteria. This breeds shallow, meaningless relationships. When you are really in need of a friend, they won't be there. When you really need constructive criticism, they would rather tell you that you are great the way you are. When you need support, they would rather see you fail or make a fool of yourself.
7. Disrespectful Dannys: These people will say or do things at the most inappropriate times and in the most inappropriate ways. In essence, they are more subtle, grown up bullies. Maybe this person is a friend who you confided in and uses your secret against you. Maybe it is a family member who puts their busy-body nose into your affairs when it is none of their business. Or maybe, it is a colleague who says demeaning things to you.
Why they are toxic: These people have no sense of boundaries and don't respect your feelings or, for that matter, your privacy. These people will cause you to feel frustrated and disrespected.
8. Never Enough Nellies: You can never give enough to these people to make them happy. They take you for granted and have unrealistic expectations of you. They find ways to continually fault you and never take responsibility for anything themselves.
Why they are toxic: You will spend so much time trying to please them, that you will end up losing yourself in the process. They will require all of your time and energy, leaving you worn out and your own needs sacrificed.
All of these personalities have several things in common. 1) the more these people get away with their behavior, the more they will continue. 2) Unfortunately, most of these people don't see that what they do is wrong and as a result, talking to them about it will fall on deaf ears, leaving you wondering if you are the crazy one. 3) Most of these people get worse with age, making their impact on you stronger with time.
ye la.. start dengan i kena copet tuh... things gets bad la....
paling tidak pun, mentally
histology was not going well....my technique in slide preparation was not good.. so in the end i kena buat balik...waste of a lot of time betul...
and the heat and rain pulak... buat i rasa sangat tak selesa... macam dalam steam room masa siang.. tapi bila malam.. sejuk sesangat...
and bila sejuk.. pain kat my knee ni start to exaggerate la....
and worse... i started to have neck pain.. and sometimes headache..
and i can only attribute this to one factor.... XYLENE..
ye la, for the past 2 weeks.. i've been dealing with toluene almost daily.. sure i pakai mask,.,,, tapi rasanya ada gak yg terlepas n masuk dalam my respiratory system.
tapi starting this week... things have been changing ..
i finished all my slides.. and they all turned up beautifully..
last night, i showed the slides to Dr Jirarach.. and she was very impressed....
and i also noticed some very good observation in many of the slides
i found that there are more Kupffer cells in the liver of frogs in contaminated sites as compared to reference sites...
i found uncharacteristic black/brown pigmen in atretic ovary of frogs in contaminated sites as well
i found what looks like an infllamation in one of the kidneys of frog in contaminated site
i found an uncharacteristic clump of cells among normal kidney cells... very unusual density and number, with some white blood cells interspersed... which i might interpret (albeit wrongly) as cancer cells in the kidney of contaminated frog
and in a mature testis, i found a lot of fully developed sperms... and also two ova....hehehehehe.. did i just stumble upon a hermaphroditic frog.. matila katak fefonen....Dr Jirarach was very excited about this...
and that's not all jugak...
I am actually going to Hong Kong for the 16th International Congress of Comparative Endocrinology at Honh Kong University...
but mrasalah registration fee is USD350 untuk student...but my advisor insisted that i register.. and my abstract has been accepted... so i'm going there on June 20th sampai june 27th.
and yesterday... i just got an e-mail daripada the Prof Fred Leung (the organizing committee chairman) saying that my abstract have been selected by the committee to be given the 16th ICCE student/post doc award... valued at HKD2800 (around USD350).. best sesangat kan...
and also yesterday.. i had a talk with Dr Noppadon about the progress of my research... and he was very pleased.. in fact his wife, Dr Jirarach said that "if only the other students would work as hard as you sham... they should look at you sham"
and he answers some of my worries about skeletochronology and vitellogenin (both i have yet to do..)..and last night's session really clears my my mind...
so today.. I am happy.. and also i have to mention that i am happy that Kris Allen has won the American Idol...yeayyyy
so what will i do today... welll... hari ni tak hectic sangat...
settlekan yuran punya hal ...apparently KPT dah bayar yuran kat my institute... phewwww lega
see Dr Wichase untuk confirmkan method for skeletochronology.. i hope to start it next week
gi semayang jumaat la....
cari souvenir untuk Shahril, Liza and Arissa.. depa dah nak balik mesia
kalau ada masa.. jumpa si Arimi.. dia datang sini hari ni
then gi konsert kat Thailand Cultural Center.. apparently ada artis brunei, filipina, thai.. and also from malaysia.. sape lah agaknya artis malaysia tuh ye... harap-harap azharina ada la...
mlm ni tido kat umah si shahril... sebab esok kami plan nak gi Bueng Chawak kat Suphan Buri...
ok itulah aje hapet i kali nih...
sekarang ni dah tak pening dah
p/s i dah beli kamera baru..hehehe.. yg murah je lah.. yang lama tu dah semi-kong dah
hari ini i am in such a sentimental and romantic mood... so i upload a few of the songs for the ever great Harry Connick Jr... he's my favourite singer...hmmmm
and finally.. kita end it with a piano instrumental played by him... Speak Softly love
sejak i balik ni.. bangkok memang panas.. bukan setakat suhu…tapi lebih dari itu
ok.. let me stori mori ye..
7 april 2009… i tak buat apa sangat kat lab.. just jumpa Dr Note untuk buat appointment for histology lab… so tengahari tu nak balik rumah.. turun kat Phra Khanong.. jalan-jalan kat situ.. and finally baru tersedar wallet dah takde…. hmmm kena pick-pocket lah nampaknya.. petang tu jugak buat police report… biasala polis tatau cakap omputih… nasib baik ada student Dr Noppadon yang ikut sekali.. so dia translatekan la..
9 april 2009… 2.30 petang tengah praktis buat dehydration, clearing, infiltration n embedding of my sample kat lab.. sekali dengar announcement oleh pihak keselamatan Chula Uni… wajibla tak fahamkan!!!!.. tapi then Dr Note bagitau yang student disuruh balik.. sebab kemungkinan perarakan “red shirt / sea deng” akan lalu depan Chula.. but a few of us decided to stay in the lab… rasanya depa tak kacau Chula kottt… and nothing happened in Chula… I cuma dengar orang jerit-jerit kat jalan besar (Phayathai Road) luar Chula aje… and pukul 8.30 malam baru I keluar dari lab… rasanya masatu perarakan dah takde kot.. lagipon tadi hujan sekejap.. maybe depa dah pergi tempat lain.. so naik bas no 40.. and bila sampai kat Phra Khanong.. bas kami telah dikellingi oleh kumpulan red shirt ni…. seram pon ada gak…. tapi depa tak buat apa-apa la… cuma halang jalan aje.. so i stuck dalam bas tu kat Phra Khanong selam dekat 2 jam… hehehe.. minggu ni Phra Khanong memang bawak sial aje kannnn
10,11 & 12 April… tak gi memana.. takut nak keluar bilik.. kalau keluar pon… just turun bawah untuk beli makanan aje… dengar berita yang sidang ASEAN kat Pattaya kecoh oleh kumpulan red shirt plak… hmmmm tatau la apa nak jadi.. si Hasseri plak berani mati pergi berjenjalan kat Pattaya ngan kawan dia.. branisssss sangat dia
13 April… dah plan pergi bilik Asra.. ada sesi makan-makan and tengok DVD.. ajak si Ikram sekali….. cuba nak naik bas 122.. tapi takde bas pon.. memang sikit aje bas.. so terpaksala ikut jalan jauh plak… naik bas no 71 (bas buruk) untuk ke BTS station kat..hmmmm… cuba teka kat mana????.. hmmm Phra Khanong…hiks hiks… on the way.. bas kena tahan ngan bebudak.. bukan red shirt.. tapi bebudak kawasan Phra Khanong tu… tahun ni depa berani tahan bas.. masuk dalam bas and siram orang ngan air.. Songkran la katakan.. habisla basah kuyup i…. naik BTS pon basah kuyup..hehehehe
Masa pergi tuh.. masih tak tahu keadaan kat Bangkok.. ingatkan red shirt punya mob scene dah habis.. ye la kan.. hari ni kan start perayaan Songkran… mesti orang nak raya kan??? eeeeekkkkk wrong.. bila BTS lalu kat Victory Monument.. i dah nampak bas jadi penghalang jalan.. and ada askar there…. bila sampai kat Mo Chit… I naik bas pergi Laksi.. kat Chulabhon Research Institute.. pergi bilik Asra… lega bil dah keluar dari tengah bandar bangkok… selamat sikit… sambil makan, kami tengok berita,…. rupanya mob scene dah jadi teruk sesangat…
malam tu, bila dah balik bilik.. dapat tahu yang rupanya masjid darul aman kat Petchburi soi 7 pon kena attack…. takuttt.. si hasseri kan tinggal kat situ.. kira nasib baik jugak si haseri pergi pattaya.. kalau tak… tatau la apa jadi ngan dia
after that day.. memang i dok kat bilik aje.. tak buat apa pun…. tak keluar… takut… baru hari sabtu lepas aje yang berani nak keluar… itu pun pergi Chula.. and dok berkurung dalam lab…..
hari ni.. Isnin 20 april 2009…. dok kat lab ni.. tunggu tengahari nanti untuk pergi lab histo buat kerja.. pagi tadi baca berita yang keadaan darurat di Bangkok disambung lagi selama seminggu… hmmmm.. rasanya tak aman bangkok nih
and also these few days… bangkok memang panasssss…. sangat panasss.. nak tido malam pon tak boleh… last week, ada satu hari tu.. suhu dalam bilik i was 39 darjah celcius….. memang kena bakar aje… kat luar lagi la panas… sabo je la
The balik kampung edition katanya....heheheh.. padahal dah 2 minggu balik bangkok baru nak post... jaga-jaga.. entry ni memang panjang.. macam cerpen.. campur ngan luahan hati i
BKK-KL
Ok.. this trip.. ada masam and ada manis la jugak... so let me story dulu ok... disebabkan I terpaksa pergi seminar.. so my AirAsia ticket kira burn la kan.... so untuk jimat kos... plan naik keretapi. My plan was.. amik tren dari bangkok ke hatyai.. then from hatyai ke KL... tiket BKK-Hatyai.. dah beli kat Bangkok.. tapi Hatyai ke KL hanya boleh beli di Hatyai... so gamble lah.. naik tren BKK -Hatyai... the journey was pleasant enough.. apatah lagi yg dok sebelah i tuhmemang menyedapkan mata memandang.. tapi budak lagi la... baru 15 tahun... nama dia Kong... dia datang ke Bangkok untuk interview masuk sekolah Polis.... hehehe... kalau simpan sekarang and tunggu lagi 3 tahun.. dapat la merasa makan pulis kannnnnn ...hehehe.. pedophilia sangat kannnn
Sampai hatyai.. dengan confidentnya pergi kaunter nak beli tiket hatyai-KL... ado???? Nan ado katanya... terus panik sekejap.. last-last dok fikir.. cubala beli tiket bas pulak... sekali.. adoooo yeay....seronok... naik bas pukul 3 petang.. sampai kl pukul 12 tengah malam... yang lagi bestnya.. dok sebelah sorang ni... very der can do....but nothing happen la.. biasala.. i ni kan kampungan.. malu-malu....hehehehehe
KL
Well... KL was so different at midnight.... kosong.. and carik teksi memang cam sial je... ada nak RM50 dari Masjid Jamek ke Greenwood.. so I sorong beg pergi sampai bangunan DBKL.. and kat sana tunggu teksi dalam sejam. Sempat la kena goda ngan beberapa mamat gibeks kat sana...as usual, i buat tatau aje la.. ye la kan gadis kampungan kan..hehehe.... then baru lah dapat teksi.. pemandu teksinya baik.. and dia dah awal-awal bagitau yang fare nya double dari bacaan meter... I sejuk hati and terus naik... and the total fare pun.. baru RM 25 aje... malam tu i had a heart to heart talk ngan along ain kat umah.. pasal masalah besar in my family
Th first thing I did the next day..main bowling ngan ANSERI... boleyyy... badan penat lagik tapi tetappppp kannn...then gi jumpa mak kat Putrajaya.. and dengar her side of the story pasal masalah yang i cakap tadik.. that night i decided i had to do something.. i need to jumpakan mak and ain.. and maybe tomorrow, mak ngan kak teh..... so my plan worked.. mak ngan ain dah berbaik... tapi nampaknya acik (which apparently is the center of the problem) masih berkeras lagi.. well.. we'll give her time... keluarga kami memang keras kepala
The next day, had a heart to heart talk ngan kak teh pulak.... susah jugak nak pujuk orang tua nih... dia pun nak keras kepala jugak... but i begged her.... to mengalah... because it tak bermaksud kalah.. i told her kalau i diminta play sides.. i will always choose mak.. walaupun mak yang salah.... in the end.. dia lembut hati jugak... just in time for Irizal to go fetch me.... nak keluar.. (sebab cuti ni pendek sangat... terpaksa buat jadual yang ketat untuk keluar ngan friends).. kami keluar makan kat area TemplerPark.. jumpa a few friends kat sana and made new friends as well.. and berkaraoke kat kedai tu tak hengat dunia sampai pukul 12 tengah malam.....bila i balik umah.. kak teh bagi tau dia baru aje jumpa mak kat putrajaya.. and everything has been settled... Alhamdulillah
Lepas tu..masalah kat fakulti pulak nak kena dengar.... nampaknya ketidak puasan hati staff sokongan and akademik terhadap penyelaras KP di luahkan pada I.... unfair tau.. i balik nak tenangkan fikiran.. tapi kali lagi diserabutkan dengan banyak masalah.. keluarga la.. fakulti lah... in this case.. i tak buat apa-apa pun.. just dengar aje la... and ask then to sabar bebanyak.....
and dalam tak tu pun... satu lagi tekanan i dapat.... almost everybody yang i jumpa minta i balik cepat untuk jadi penyelaras....hmmmmm... sorry, i think i will decline this vehemently.... bukan taknak pegang responsibility.... tapi i nak punca masalah diselesaikan sendiri oleh pihak yang terlibat... i kalau boleh taknak campur sangat... lagipun i memang attest/benci sesangat kerja pentadbiran.. i felt very happy when i teach.. and that's the main reason i kerja kat fakulti nih... so i dah buat keputusan.. anybody yang cadangkan i pegang jawatan penyelaras.. i akan tolak mentah-mentah.... sebab i tahu kemampuan i.. i boleh buat kerja.. i can do work and teach excellently.. tapi i cannot mengarah orang lain buat kerja.. mentadbir is not my cup of tea...
So the whole two weeks... my life was filled with cerita pasal famili and pasal fakulti.... tambah lagi bila mak mula bincang pembahagian harta dia... i terus stress.. i told her... kalau boleh i taknak any of her harta... i takde famili.. and i dah ada harta sendiri... that's more than enough for me... but dia tegaskan satu benda yang buat i terkedu jugak... dia taknak zari take over anymore harta dia.. takut zari jual lagik...in that sense.. memang i totally agree with her... sebab zari ni memang dah banyak sejarah tak menyenangkan dengan bab harta nih... this is the list:
Ayah pernah nak beli van untuk kegunaan keluarga.. so dia beli atas nama zari lah.. katanya nak memudahkan urusan... ayah bayar tapi atas nam dia and dia yang guna.. kat tepi van tu siap ada nama dia .. in the end dia jual van tu...ye la.. benda tu dah kira hak dia la....
dulu rumah greenwood (ini rumah yang ayah beli) ayah tukar nama atas nama dia.. what did he do... dia nak jual rumah tu.. and dia ugut kalau kak teh taknak beli umah tu.. dia akan jual kpd orang lain (and at that time kami sekeluaarga masih dok kat dumah tuh..boleyyyy).. in the end kak teh agree to jointly amik loan dgn mimi untuk selamatkan rumah tu... tapi tetap mostly mak yang bayar.
At the same time kak teh ada beli rumah kat selayang.. tapi after a while kakteh nak jual rumah... zari offer nak uruskan.. tau-tau zari dah jual..and dia dah ambik semua duit pendahuluan dari buyer.. so kak teh kira rugi la kan....
Remember rumah greenwood tu.. asalnya dah tak hutang tapi sebab "kebijaksanaan" si zari nih....kak teh terpaksa amik loan untuk selamatkan rumahkan...so amik bertahun nak selesaikan pembayaran plak kan... and masa i dah kerja kat miri... tetiba dapat call dari mak supaya i amik loan.. dia nak jual rumah Selayang Utama (ini rumah mak i yang beli) kat i sebab nak habiskan bayar rumah greenwood.. i ikut aje lah.. sebab mak yang mintak.. rupanya zari dah pujuk mak untuk jual rumah greenwood.. bila semua urusan dah settle, baru i tahu yang sebenarnya loan rumah greenwood tuh hanya ada dalam 12000 saja lagi.. kalau i tahu, i takkan amik loan lain.. i'll just continue bayar aje...tak pasal-pasal i beli rumah mak.. yang berharga 20,000 dengan harga 58,0000
Pasal loan rumah selayang ni pun ada banyak cerita jugak... i was told zari pernah dapatkan pihak bank maybank untuk appraise rumah selayang tu sebelum i amik loan.. and it was appraise at 90,000.. the intention was supaya i boleh amik loan sampai 90,000.. untuk rumah selayang tuh.. boleyyyy.. nasib baik nilai tu tak diterima oleh MBSB.. they made their own appraisal.. and the value hanya about 58,000 aje....so nasib baik tak go with the 90,000 tuh... kalau tak free-free aje i berhutang ngan bank sebanyak 90,000 untuk rumah yang harganya 20,000
Mak pernah minta zari usahakan tanah dia kat Solok... dia setuju.. tapi dia mintak mak tukar terus nama tanah tu atas nama dia.. and mak setuju (mak is just being mak... setuju aje)... so tanah Solok tu sekarang ni dah atas nama dia...(just imagine.. he's anak angkat.. and dia dah dapat berapa banyak harta mak ngan arwah ayah.. and anak-anak mak n ayah sendiri tak dapat apa-apa.. dapat tanggung hutang lagi ada lah).. and in the end.. tanah tu tak diusahakan jugak...hmmmm
The latest.. zari mintak nak usahakan tanah mak kat port dickson... mak setuju.. tapi kali ni mak dah bijak sikit kot... mak kata.. mak takkan tukar hakmilik tanah tu kpd dia... kalau nak usaha...usaha aje la... tak perlu tukar nama.. so dia buat rumah untuk keluarga dia.. buat kolam ikan keli n lintah... and sekarang ni start bela kambing pulak... kak teh ikut usahakan tanah tu jugak... bela ayam kampung, itik telur and various poultry.. and nampaknya what kak teh did was more successful than what zari did...yang zari punya .. hmmmmm.. kolam ikan dah terbiar.. lintah tu ntahlah.. and kambing dia ada berpenyakit.. kurap.. usaha kakteh pulak.... nampaknya menjadi sesangat. Semua itik dah bertelur everyday.. and dia dah dapat pelanggan tetap untuk telur itik. Ayak kampung dia dah membiak baik.. and dah ada pasaran sendiri.. and now dia start dengan ayam belanda and angsa... the latest i dengar.. 2 ibu ayam belanda dah menetaskan 13 anak.....
And mak pernah suggest kat zari supaya usahakan tanah Solok yang dah atas nama dia tu... dia dah ada pengalaman kan.. so dah takde masalah untuk usahakan tanah Solok tu.. and apa yang kat port dickson tu.. mak minta kak teh yang usahakan... sebab kak teh yang nampak lebih berjaya...zari cakap dia boleh buat ..tapi dengan syarat.. mak bayar kat dia RM 100,000.... boleyyyyy..what a snake he is...demand macam tak hengat dunia.. in the end... suggestion to senyap aje
So sekarang ni masih takde penyelesaian... mimi memang dah lepas tangan dah.. dia memang taknak any harta.. mak nak letak nama acik and me untuk tanah port dickson tuh.. tapi tanah tu kak teh dah usahakan.. and acik n kak teh masih belum berbaik lagi...pastu.. mak nak bagi tanah kampung Terentang kat kak teh.. tapi that means kak teh will have to start over... kak teh keberatan, tapi she's ok with it.. Cuma masih ada masalah kecil... tanah tu masih atas nama my uncle... atas satu deal yang lama dah....ni deal nenek moyang la.. walaupun the rightful owner is mak...hmmmm.. dah pening kepala ke... i lagi pening... tu yang makin tak sabar nak balik bangkok
KL-BKK
I mintak kak teh hantar i ke airport 3 jam awal... mak ikut jugak... at least once i dah masuk balai berlepas... i boleh tolak ketepi semua masalah kat KL yang begitu memening dan memusingkan kepala... tapi sempat jugak mak bagi satu pesanan yang tambah pening sikit.. mak mintak i balik nanti.. and cari isteri...kahwin.. hmmm .. tapi i ada rebuttal.. i asked her to think about our family... banyak rumahtangga cerai berai dalam keluarga kami.. Alang dah kena halau oleh isteri dia. Kak teh dah dua kali kawin.. mula ngan penagih dadah ( dapat anak si ain and hidayah)... and the second time laki dia pukul dia.. sekarang dah bercerai. Zari pernah bercerai ngan isteri dia sebab nak kawin ngan anak ustaz/orang kuat PAS kat kawasan umah dia... but in the end tak jadi.. last-last balik semula ngan isteri dia sekarang ni... Acik pernah kawin ngan Rafi... and in the end berantakan bila Rafi pukul dia masa dia kerja.... yang masih takde masalah besar hanya la si Mimi.. itu pun mak dok banyak komplen pasal si Choy (suami mimi).... so atas alasan tu, i told my mom.. most probably i takkan kawin... i felt that hidup akan lebih aman kalau i tak kawin...and i truly believe it... example yang sangat dekat dah ada.. in my family.. almost 70% of marriages berantakan.. even my mom was a second wife.... so the history is there.. i taknak repeat the history.full stop. And mak diam aje... tak tau la kalau dia terima alasan i...
BKK
I sampai bangkok with full of relief.... i ingatkan balik malaysia akan tenangkan fikiran i.. tapi i just realised, bila i balik bangkok, i am much happier person.. i have focus in what i do and in my life.. i enjoyed life better here.. and i intend to enjoy every moment i am here sebab i tahu bila i habis belajar nanti, and balik malaysia nanti.. i tau ada banyak masalah yang akan menunggu i....
So that's my luahan hati.... and THIS IS... THE BALIK KAMPUNG...errr.. THE BALIK KL EDITION.
